So I’m in recovery in the methadone clinic, I’ve been sober since March from fentanyl, crack, and Xanax and would use basically anything I could get my hands on. I was with my boyfriend for 7 years on December 31, but he sadly passed away on November 28 from relapsing once. He was clean since April. We decided to get clean because we found out I was pregnant on my 21st birthday. He passed when our son was only a little over a month old, he is almost 3 months now. I guess I am writing this because I have no one to talk about my use or our past and I feel like it’s eating me away. He was all ive known I was 14 and he was 16 when we first started dating, we were inseparable, we were each others halves. It’s been so hard to stay sober this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through in my life, like how am I supposed to explain this to my son when he gets older? He was an amazing father and loved being a dad so much, he loved him more than anything. I know I have to stay sober for my son because cps is involved, this is just the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life. This is the only picture we got together with our son. Sorry for typing all this just I feel like I needed to get this out somehow, I have no one I can talk to about this that actually understands what I’m going through
Credit: Isabella Oliveira ( respect 🫡)